Marriage

Just a few days ,ago I celebrated my 27 birthday.'Celebrate' I would like to call it but none the less it was a step closer to the inevitable. I never realised what my age was and how fast time flies by.It seemed that just a few years ago I used to go to school,had loads of friends had no responsibilities.But I guess time never stops and change happens every second.
With my age as a factor I am begining to hear all sorts of chatter about my marriage.Sometimes my parents ,sometimes friends and most of the time relatives point out that its high time I should get married."Marriage" as strange as the word seems it really scares the shit out of me. Is it somehow derived from marijuana (marriage +uana):something fun initially but slowly eats you away.But every one does it .Why ?What exactly is marriage?
Well what I can make out of this institution is that two people (wouldn't be right to say of "different sex" in todays world) finally decide that its time to live life in a different way,leaving their care free self indulgent style for a totally different life, where you wont be you anymore ;you would become we. You will have to adjust & change yourself to your partners needs so that both the parties are in sync and the relationship harmonious.hmmm, not bad eh! .... but at the price of freedom ...Freedom of will, speech & expression.So is it really necessary?
Somehow ,I feel it is.Why?Because we are social animals.We need companions.We do have a need for a partner someone to call our own & someone one we can belong to.Then there is a need to have our offsprings,love them ,tend them ,train them so that they can finally become competant enough, to carry our blood lines in a dignified manner ,into the future.
So we decide to give it all up in hopes of marital bliss and a unknown exciting future.As far as I am concerned,I am still not there.Why ? simply because I am not sure what I want from my partner,what I expect and what I can give.Somehow, I also think that I havent yet found a person who would compliment me and make me complete.Lets see what future has installed for me.
So, time to end the post.In future posts I plan to analyse myself further to get a picture of an ideal mate for me.